Spring....Organizing?

I'm getting organized today.

i have a few ventures i want to embark on and i feel like they are adding up and i'm getting overwhelmed but i know it's not that big of a deal. so i just have to take some time, sit down, and gather my thoughts. some of my new ventures are... i want to make the extra bedroom in my house a massage room (i'm excited about this one, maybe i'll actually feel like a professional) i want to start selling some stuff online (i'm NOT excited about this, i hate the internet) and i have a few people i owe presents to so i have to make a list and get on with that (i'm definitely excited about that, let me know if you want something from me...this would be the time to exploit me) :)



oh and in case your wondering about the picture...i have no idea who it is.
i just found it when i was going through some of my old files today. enjoy.

Primita

A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction

...sigh...

i informed my father that i may marry patrick watson.
he said: "but he's a loser."
i said: "no. he's a winner."

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Familia! Famiglia! Family!

Well it's been quite the family week. I use the term 'been quite the' a lot in my opening lines, just in case you noticed and thought I might be oblivious to it. Maybe because my post are mostly reviews of what was going on in my meager little life.

My cousin from Ecuador is visiting for THREE WHOLE weeks! (poor thing)
Just Kidding...there was this big scandal because she's homesick and I supposedly wasn't being nice to her. I love this girl to death and anyone who knows me knows that. But I do admit that my patience over the past year has grown thin with sensitive people. That's not to say that i'm not a sensitive person, not in the leat bit, because I know am; but it's just that I don't expect people to walk on eggshells when I'm moody, depressed, or even if I'm crying my eyes out right in front of them. Devon recently brought it to my attention that may cry or be emotional right in front of people but that doesn't mean that I expect them to solve my problem. And she is right, I never knew that about myself though...thanks dev! I don't know I think it's my latest obsession with honesty. If I don't feel good or I'm sad, I don't want to hide it and pretend nothing wrong. But that probably just comes from years of repressing my emotions...serious repression.

Hey wait a minute...I'm suppose to be talking about family! ...geez I'm so narcissistic! sorry.

Okay well yes my cousin is in town so I'm trying to take her places so that she can enjoy her stay and TRY to forget that she's not in Ecuador. (homesick is something I can only SLIGHTLY empathize with...but not really) So we went to South Beach on Sunday for dinner and coffee and a little window shopping. It was quite windy but I enjoyed it all the same. I tried on these black mid-thigh 'leather' boots...sigh.... they weren't out of my price range but i didn't go there with the mind-set of spending money so I talked myself out of buying them. Plus they're not real leather so i don't want to invest in something that's gonna fall apart. But I'm still thinking about them...maybe I'll get them if I ever go back...we shall see. That last part was pretty much just for Devon, I don't think the boys care very much...sorry boys.

Anyways, my cousin from Italia! also called us...now brace yourselves...
He called and spoke with my mom and this is how it went: (i'll translate it for you)

Rudy: Hola tia! I'm calling you to tell you something that I think will make you very happy

Mom: ....

Rudy: I'm studying the Bible.

Mom: RUDY!

Rudy: I like it.

Mom: RUDY!

Rudy: and I find it very interesting and i want to pursue it.

Mom: Rudy!

Rudy: for the past 7 months with Jehovah's Witnesses

Mom: RUDY!!!


...oh man,I thought she was gonna have a conniption. But before i knew why she was yelling and crying i was telling her to quiet down, I WAS reading after all! just kidding ;)
Yeah, so she put him on speaker and our mouths dropped and we all started crying...well probably not my dad, but you never know these days. Crystina got to talk to him but his minutes were running out so I didn't get to. But i wrote him an e-mail, and by the next day he already responded! I've been putting off my Europe trip but i might have to push it up a year or two. It was sooo nice to hear that, and hear his zeal for the truth. I'll share just a part of his e-mail back to me (we were discussing foreign language congregations):

In the last few months I had the chance to visit a bunch of different congregations, assemblies (the first one was actually even before my first study..) and also to the Bethel in Brooklyn. It's so incredibly (well, actually after you get to know Jehovah, so CREDIBLY) amazing that all this giant worldwide congregation works with so much efficiency and all for one incredible cause. In my experience I think I can say there is no other organization on earth capable of such amazing results. If this are the premises to what Jehovah's Kingdom, well, bring it on!!


Ahh...isn't that amazing! it really makes me so happy I could cry...what a shocker. ;) So, if it's in your heart please keep him and his progress in your prayers.

So now I'm gonna join a conversation about Jehovah that my mom is having with my cousin. She's been going to spanish meetings with my mom (as usual) and showing interest (as usual). I hope she doesn't give it up.

reading warfare

So I've been a reading fiend these past couple of weeks.
I'm working on 4 books and one magazine simultaneously.
I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere, but I can't surrender.

One of the books is "On The Road" by Jack Kerouac, and i was slayed by these two quotes:


"We turned at a dozen paces, for love is a duel, and looked at each other for the last time."

and

"Isn't it true that you start your life a sweet child believing in everything under your father's roof? Then comes the day of the Laodiceans, when you know you are wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked, and with the visage of a gruesome grieving ghost you go shuddering through nightmare life"

endurance

Consider it all joy, my brothers, when YOU meet with various trials, knowing as YOU do that this tested quality of YOUR faith works out endurance. But let endurance have its work complete, that YOU may be complete and sound in all respects, not lacking in anything.

James 1:2-4

am i weird for quoting the Bible? i ask, but i don't know if i care what you think. no offense. i guess i just want to reaffirm that i'm not a weirdo, and i recognize the somewhat offbeat nature of my post.

well. that's all i've been meaning to put up lately. it's been almost two weeks since my last post and i do think of blogging. i just never think i have anything interesting to say. i could go into "why this scripture in particular" breaking it down to what it means to me and why i think it's so important...but i'll let you decipher that for yourselves.

whatever. sigh.

Get Your Leather On

so i havn't really been in a posting mood as of late.

i'm still not really 'inspired' to write anything profound or revolutionary. i guess i'm not really expected to anyways. it's just a little blog right. who cares.

well i wanted to leave another video...i don't know if you feel cheated when i do this though. i guess i am trying to 'cheat' you though; in the sense that i don't like letting people in to whats going on in my head, in my world over here. so i let you watch other peoples worlds. sorry.

i messed up though in trying to keep people out. i think i let some people in over the weekend. you might be reading this and you might be one of those people. and to them i only say...don't use it against me. :)

what is it about secrets that scare us so much? and by 'us' i mean 'me'. what is it about appearances? we obviously know that no one is perfect, i think we can all agree at least to that. so why do we (once again i'm not trying to project my emotions/opinions on you, it's just easier to open up when i use plural nouns) try and make people believe that we are 'perfect' or at least not as screwed up as we truly are?

as for me i can truly say it's hard for me to get close to someone who hasn't been through hardships, who hasn't seen as many downs as ups. i value empathy. and for the things i've been through, at least in my 23 years and especially in the past 2-3 years, that is one thing i'm glad i have, or at least i think i have...empathy.

well i don't know where all that came from...i was really just going to talk about my upcoming new hairstyle (i'm losing hair, don't worry it'll stop when i learn how to deal with my anxiety, so what should i do, short? long? different color? rocker chic? bangs? classy?) and leave a YYYs video (which i still will)

so feel free to comment on anything that strikes a cord with you about this blog...or don't comment at all...i'm fine.

oh and in regards to this video...it's for all my friday night cronies...i will always (semi)remember that night when i hear this song....ohhh it's so good!
i especially love her cute little coy smile through out the video...she looks just like i feel when i listen to this song :)