so i havn't really been in a posting mood as of late.
i'm still not really 'inspired' to write anything profound or revolutionary. i guess i'm not really expected to anyways. it's just a little blog right. who cares.
well i wanted to leave another video...i don't know if you feel cheated when i do this though. i guess i am trying to 'cheat' you though; in the sense that i don't like letting people in to whats going on in my head, in my world over here. so i let you watch other peoples worlds. sorry.
i messed up though in trying to keep people out. i think i let some people in over the weekend. you might be reading this and you might be one of those people. and to them i only say...don't use it against me. :)
what is it about secrets that scare us so much? and by 'us' i mean 'me'. what is it about appearances? we obviously know that no one is perfect, i think we can all agree at least to that. so why do we (once again i'm not trying to project my emotions/opinions on you, it's just easier to open up when i use plural nouns) try and make people believe that we are 'perfect' or at least not as screwed up as we truly are?
as for me i can truly say it's hard for me to get close to someone who hasn't been through hardships, who hasn't seen as many downs as ups. i value empathy. and for the things i've been through, at least in my 23 years and especially in the past 2-3 years, that is one thing i'm glad i have, or at least i think i have...empathy.
well i don't know where all that came from...i was really just going to talk about my upcoming new hairstyle (i'm losing hair, don't worry it'll stop when i learn how to deal with my anxiety, so what should i do, short? long? different color? rocker chic? bangs? classy?) and leave a YYYs video (which i still will)
so feel free to comment on anything that strikes a cord with you about this blog...or don't comment at all...i'm fine.
oh and in regards to this video...it's for all my friday night cronies...i will always (semi)remember that night when i hear this song....ohhh it's so good!
i especially love her cute little coy smile through out the video...she looks just like i feel when i listen to this song :)
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I saw this video for the first time a few weeks ago. When I hear it, I feel like she looks. I feel like I'm the coolest person in the world. Like a rock star and you are your own audience. She doesn't need anybody to tell her shes awesome. I haven't felt like that in awhile. Sorry if this doesn't make sense. . .
ReplyDeleteWhy is it that we always build walls to keep others out? Why do we always hold things to ourselves? It always seems to me that I feel so much better when I have no secrets, when those around me know everything, when I hold nothing back. And yet, somehow it is always the hardest thing in the world to show people pieces of myself. Sometimes I feel that I would rather undergo some kind of physical pain than say what is in my heart. But then I force myself, and I feel so good afterwards. I just hope that in the real life to come all the inhibition is gone.
ReplyDeleteAnd I agree - empathy is one of the qualities that attracts the most. There is nothing better then someone who comprehends and understands our pain. (See - I can use "we" too..it seems so much more natural than "I")
And Thank you for reminding me the Yeah Yeah Yeahs! exist. After I came back home at the end of December I discovered that Alicia Keys had released her new album, and it instantly become my favorite. But...somehow I've managed to exclusively listen this album and her older ones for a whole month now, maybe sometimes branching out to other R&B. It was time I branched back out into the wider world of music. :)
Whoa...that looks way long now that I've posted it. Sorry Bianca, didn't mean to write my own post.
ReplyDeleteThis comment is to inform you that I read your post, and a few others too (I had some catching up to do).
ReplyDeletePS. Dont cut your hair short, it looks great the way it is. :-(
PSS. Dont punch me for this comment please (even though....I deserve it)
Ralph - you make complete sense and i agree completely. :) you are awesome.
ReplyDeletejohnathan 2 - your welcome. i love when people accept 'my' music, doesn't always happen, especially with my family :)
and it's okay there's no limit on characters per comment.
brandon- what a jerk.
it's okay though, i understand you have to divide your time up between your friends and playing games on your future box.
and don't worry about me hitting you anymore, i learned my lesson last time when you left me bruised up! j/k.
but i guess you made up for it with the hair comment. thanks.
I feel like I just peeked through the cracked open door. Maybe soon I'll have a foot in. I guess we'll see.
ReplyDeleteInspiration = perspiration + intoxication
I like being open, to a fault. My experieces in Japan have taught me to control that. The Japanese hide things even more than we do, although it is not to look "perfect," but to look average. Balance is needed. However, when going through hard times, it's best when others know. They will know more how to support you and be able to at least sympathize with you, if they are unable to empathize. Don't fret though, I don't think you should feel obligated to be more open. Don't fret, we all have our secrets. Even I hide things.
Things got choppy at the end, I had to hurry and go teach a class. I said don't fret twice. Strange.
ReplyDeleteYou know how I feel about hair...but you should do what ever you think will make you happy, whether a drastic change or a graceful remodeling. I look forward to seeing it.